fear

"how good it is to be free of fear from yourself" --before that 1st compulsive bite phamplet

i have been maintaining 6 days of continuous abstinence and after reading VOR today I realaized that I have been afraid to write about it. this disease is truly powerful, cunning and baffling... i think subconciously i would "curse" my abstinence by writing about it. i really am focusing on each day sometimes i break it up into hours because the day is too much. anyway i am currently in my 1st abstinent weekend and it boggles my mind. when i do the actions within my control, turn my will over to god he is TRULY doing for me what I cannot do for myself.